Affaire de Coeur

2012-02-15T01:10:00.001+08:00

25 October 2012 @ 3am.. I started having really bad and very near contractions.. I keep asking baby for the time and keep track of the contractions timings.. At 4+am, it was so bad that i started to feel super intense contractions.. Kept going to the toilet and start to bend myself whenever the contractions came.. That's when i told baby that its time to go to the hospital.. When we reach the hospital, we were sent to the labour ward.. The midwife then informed me that i was already 6cm dilated and that if i want to have the epidural, i need to inform fast or there won't be enough time to do it.. As i couldn't stand the pain, i decided to take it and the neccessary was done.. At 10.30am, i was told that baby is coming out and i will give birth by 11am latest.. After 3 big push, my baby boy was out of me at 10.54am.. I heard his cries and was just glad that all is fine..

Baby took him in his arms and recite the prayers into his ears.. I watched with tears rolling down.. In my heart, i thank god for giving me the strength and to be alive to see my babies.. I was super exhausted as i was doing the decor laundry when i was having the contractions so I took a quick nap before the others arrive.. One by one, family members and friends came to see the newborn and congratulate us..

3months has passed since.. Being at home seeing him grow as time goes by is great minus all the difficulties.. Elhan Mateen is my everything other than the father of my child.. For the sake of these two boys, i would go through anything for them as much as i can..

Today, he is my companion at home.. With him around, the house is no longer quiet as its filled with his laughter and cries..

2012-02-15T00:53:00.001+08:00

Came 2011.. Year of joyous occassions; weddings, engagement and especially the birth of my baby belon..

Second to wed was irin in March.. I managed to be at her place to witness her solemnisation to fiance, Hamsa despite helping out baby with decor setup in the morning.. Wedding reception was held the following day and I was there throughout the event.. The couple was dressed in the malay traditional outfits of the royal yellow with irin wearing the traditional sanggul lintang headgear and in black traditional kebaya gown.. Love the final black outfit that she wore.. It was something different; a black kebaya gown made from songket.. Months after the wedding, it was good news for the newly weds.. A baby boy to be in their arms by December whom couldn't wait till then and decided to make his grand entrance on 30 November 2011. He was named Haqqi Bin Hamsa.. Looked exactly like irin to me.. Congratulations to them once again on their bundle of joy!

Third to wed was widy in March too.. We were involved in the preparations as we assisted in the solemnisation gift trays and were her bridesmaids for the day.. Red and white was the theme of the wedding.. It was a beautiful wedding held at Laguna Country Club.. Didn't managed to stay till the end for her outdoor photoshoot as i have to do some errands for my mother.. I am glad i was there to witness the whole solemnisation and reception.. Once again, congratulations babe!

Then in end April, a holiday sponsored by mother to USA California; San Francisco, Las Vegas and Los Angeles.. The whole family went except for lv due to school commitments.. Ira managed to be with us till the last day of USA trip but missed the Dubai free nights due to work commitments.. Nevertheless, it was such an enjoyable trip with all the shopping and sightseeing.. I was already about 4months pregnant then so i was not allowed to take the rides in Universal Studios. Sooo not fun coz baby and ira went to most rides and whenever they are out from the rides, they would tell me how awesome it is.. Disneyland would be more fun if we have kids.. Walkimg down Rodeo Drive made me feel like Julia Roberts in Pretty Woman.. Kodak Theatre and Hollywood Walk of Fame was fun too.. Las Vegas strip was superb with the night lights.. Get to visit Grand Canyon and took the helicopter ride too.. Also, we managed to take pics at the welcome to las vegas sign! San Francisco union square, fisherman wharf and the golden gate bridge was nice and pretty too.. The best part of it all was the shopping there.. Coach, kate spade, michael kors, timbaland, forever 21, oakley, samsonite, aldo were some of the shops we spent our cash.. Simply said, the trip was super fabolous.. Went wit 1 big bag each and came back with 2 big and 1 cabin bags each!

June.. Lv engagement to Sadiq.. Can't believe that my sister is all grown up and soon she will be a wife.. Simple preparations were made for the engagement.. Mother cooked her specialty and mother in-law helped to cooked other 2 dishes.. Baby was in charge of the bedroom decor and the decor for the buffet and guest tables and chairs.. I was the MUA for her engagement while Apek was the photographer.. All went well although it was abit too rushing on sadiq side.. Insyallah, they will be solemnise this September..

As mentioned earlier in this post, baby resigned from PSA and join his friend, Nas full-time instead.. We are thankful to Nas for this job as baby needs flexibility in his job to fulfil his other job commitment as a wedding service provider doing bridal decor and dias.. We were given the opportunity to takeover the business.. Real soon, we can called it ours and a new branding will be announced.. Alhamdulillah amin..

25 October 2011 at 1054hrs.. I gave birth to a healthy baby boy named Elhan Mateen which weighs 3735grams and measures 51cm..

The pregnancy was known to me sometime in end February. I had gone to the doctor for medical leave actually. I was telling the doctor about the diarrhea and vomitting i was having when he asked if ive had my monthly period.. No was my answer to him.. He then asked when was my first day of my last period.. Answered him accordingly and was asked if i would like to take a pregnancy test since i was trying. I agreed for the fun of it.. Did the usuals of a pregnancy test and waited.. Nurse called my name, went in the doctor's office and with a smile, he said " Congratulations dear.. You are pregnant!" I was shocked and couldn't believe what i heard but at the same time i thank god for the good news. Baby was waiting for me outside the clinic but was not informed of it straightaway due to the quarrel we had earlier.. I kept quiet about it till the next day, i decided to get baby to buy me a pregnancy test kit. Tested and it was positive! Showed it to baby and he was like " Is this for real? Are we having a baby?" That moment was precious..

My first trimester wasn't an easy one.. I had morning sickness most of the days and managed to hide it from my family.. I was late for work most days and took medical leave whenever the morning sickness and vomitting was very bad. Folic acid was the only medicine i took during first trimester.. I have not gone to the gynae yet as i fear of another miscarriage and decided to wait only till i'm 4months pregnant..

Second trimester started before my USA trip.. I have not chosen my gynae yet so i went to a gynae in Lucky Plaza to have an ultrasound scan on my baby belon.. I was glad to hear him say that my baby belon is growing fine.. I was given prenatal vitamins and since then i took extra care of myself; drinking milk at least twice a day, eating for 2 etc.. We then decided to break the good news to our family by giving a dinner treat a week before the USA trip.. Everyone was excited and happy to hear the good news and couldn't wait for the arrival of baby belon.. During the trip, i was simply annoyed and got irritated by the slightest things done by my parents.. I was always reminded by baby and ira to be calm and relax.. When i came back from the trip, i have decided to go to my chosen gynae; Dr Heng (recommended by eqa) and have my monthly checks there.. He was a very soft spoken gynae whom answered my questions and advices me accordingly whenever neccessary. It was my first checkup with him in my 5th month when i got to know that i was carrying a boy inside of me.. We were pleased and thank god for the gift.. I was then scheduled for an ultrasound to check on the baby's wellbeing.. A week after the ultrasound check, we were glad to hear all is fine with the baby..

Third trimester was when all the drama started.. It was fasting month when i had my last monthly checkup during my 8th month.. Gynae was doing an ultrasound as usual; checking on the baby's head circumference, weight etc. He told.me that based on the weight which was 1.9+ kg, baby weight is on the average side. He was asking if i was fasting. When told him yes, he asked me not to force myself if i can't since it was not required.. Due to the way he said things that day, i was abit worried that the baby might be lighter than its supposed to be.. So i started to ask for advice from others.. Eqa then informed me that the sister advices me to drink 100plus.. The kiasu me heard that and ordered baby to purchase 3bottles of it.. I drank it all and was satisfied with the results on the weight of the baby at my next checkup.. It was weekly visits by then.. There was once when i had pains on my right side of tummy which was actually urine infection.. So glad to hear that from gynae.. Was afraid that it could be something serious as i was afraid it may be contractions.. I was fine after taking meds.. Then in late october, i started to have contractions and it was a very bad one on this particular day.. When to the gynae, cervix has open 3cm and was told to go to hospital.. Instead i waited till the next day as i was able to hold on.. But it was a wasted trip as my contractions were not so bad and cervix wall are not ready yet.. I was sent home and since then i stayed home waiting for the time..

To be continued in the next post....

2012-02-15T00:18:00.001+08:00

This is it.. I've decided to write this long entry while on the bed in between my two babies..

Lets backtrack not abit but alot, shall we? However, it will be broken up into 2 posts; one for each year..

Hmmm.. Year 2010.. What can i tell you about it.. It was the year i left Shinetown; my 4years 8months job in May for a new career in MVCI as a membership advisor.. A totally different jobscope altogether although the basics are the same.. Definitely not much free time and sometimes not enough time to do everything and clear all follow ups that i have for the day or even the previous days.. I must say it was a very challenging job with only a maximum of 2hours allowed to be logged off from the phone.. I did pull through my probation period of 3months and enjoyed it till there was a reshuffle in the management.. My previous director was ask to be incharge of business development and vice versa.. That was when in March 2011, it became a love hate relationship.. Love the colleagues but hates the management! It then became worse when i got to know about my pregnancy in February 2011.. All eyes were on me and since then, i would take every opportunity to be absent from work which i did successfully.. Hehe.. However after my maternity leave, i decided to leave the company for good and be a SAHM to my baby belon.. It was indeed a difficult decision made as i wish to continue working.. We were unable to get a suitable babysitter while to have a maid all alone in the house will be kinda scary thus the decision.. But of course, i have my other ways of income or else i will have to depend on baby for everything..

2010.. Baby decided to leave his career in property and join PSA.. It doesn't last long too in PSA as well due to the opportunity given to us in the early months of 2011..

2010 was also the year we celebrated Hari Raya as husband and wife.. It was definitely heartbreaking to leave my family on the first day to go visiting with my in-laws.. I remember crying when i saw lv's blogpost on the first day of Hari Raya.. But again, this is something that i have to compromise and sacrifice being married.. Nevertheless, we still make it a point to have the same color for my family outfits which was black then..

That year was also our very first anniversary.. Not much of a celebration but we had our fair share of lovey dovey messages to one another to remind us of our union..

It was also the year Eqa got engaged to Izan.. I was given the honour of dolling her up for her engagement.. All went well that day.. I was very happy for her as she finally got what she deserves.. A man whom i know will give his best to her in every way he can.. Alhamdulilah and i can't wait for her big day to come this November when she will be solemnise to the man whom He had chose for her.. Insyallah..

That's it for 2010.. 2011 is coming right up..:)

2011-10-18T04:42:00.001+08:00

So.. 21 Mar 2010 was my last blog post.. That really sucks big time.. Didn't realised that it was that long since my last post..

Lots of things has happened since.. Be it good or bad, life has to go on right?

Since i managed to get the right apps for blogger using my S2, i believe that i'll be blogging as much as i used to previously i hope. I would love to read and be reminded of my past at times about things that happen around me and in my life..

That's it for now..

Will be back to fill you in about the days of my life that you've been missing for the past year; a summary of it definitely..

2010-03-21T14:52:00.002+08:00

For one moment, things are fine..
A while later, things are not..

Is it me? I seem to be having mood swings lately..
That sucks really..

I have lots of things in my mind right now..
Sometimes, I stressed out myself over nothing too..

Its not even the first quarter of 2010 and many things have happened.

2010-02-21T13:18:00.014+08:00

Do you know what makes me happy?
You! My baby boy!
Despite your nonsensical jokes and the irritating tepuk tepuk-ness on my back etc, I still want you...
Amazingly, I still have butterflies in the stomach after all these years we're together.
The decision made in 2005 was indeed a right one and I've always known that you're the one since then.
I'm glad fate brought us together. The meetup in 1998 was indeed a fruitful one.
From being strangers to friends to in a relationship to being engaged to now a married couple.
Looking forward to more to's....
We will be together till the end of time...
Insyallah....

Back in 2000... when we were only 17...

In 2005, when we meet again.....

Our so called first lovey dovey pic at East Coast...

Our first Hari Raya since 2005 but second Hari Raya since 2000....

Our first plane trip in 2006...

Our first riding trip in 2007....

Our second motogp road trip in 2008....

Our one & only wedding in 2009...

Our very first honeymoon and snow experience in 2009..

And definitely there will be lots of 'first' to come in near future....
I love you,,,

2010-02-19T00:23:00.000+08:00

The past month was very sad for me but i managed to pull through with the support from my lovely baby, family and friends. Till now i still wonder why but things happen for a reason right?

I've been quite emotional at times because of the incident that happen in the past month. I cried for no reason at times when i'm in the room at night with baby sleepin peacefully. I had dreams that made me smile but ended up crying when i woke up. I know that the time will come when He said so.

For now, i'm just trying to be healthy and hope the time will come soon.:)

It has been 4 months since my new status as a wife. Things have been great as a husband and wife. No big issues yet so its really good. Baby's making his move to a new career this coming Monday. I'm very happy for him and i hope with this move, he'll do so much better. There are some sacrifices that i have to make but i know that he's doing this for us to have a better life.

Work is as usual. Nothing has changed yet. Its the normal routine still. However, i hope its gonna get busier as the days goes by or i'll get bored seriously. It's been stagnant for 2 years now.

Makeup assignments are picking up which is a good thing too. I hope to have more assignments than last year though. I need more practise too. I know my assignments can help me with that but they are abit too far apart. Anyone wants a makeover? Contact me and i'll be more than happy to do it.:)

Things will be better.....

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2010-01-12T22:58:00.000+08:00

Ya Allah.. Berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk menghadapi segala apa jua yg akan terjadi..

I can't stop crying since I was warded.. :(

I'm praying for the best and hoping that all will be just fine..

Baby was being really supportive and cool of the situation.. I salute him for that..

I love you both my babies..! The one inside please stay strong and be with me till end of time..

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2010-01-05T09:10:00.002+08:00

Welcoming 2010 at The Regent with the WS gilerians was fun although I slept as early as 1am. Heheheh. And when I woke up around 8am, the boys were still playing cards! Gosh! The girls wash up and bring the two little boys, Aufa and Ryan down to Tanglin Mall for Mcdonalds breakfast and brought back for the big boys too who were sleeping when we reached the room. We (read: Alia, Dud, Aufa, Me and Baby) went down to Level 2 for a swim. That's when Aufa had his first swim. He was so cute. We wanted to let him go and see if he can somewhat swim on his own as they say that babies are natural swimmers. But we didn't. Hehehhe. Till now, I'm still curious how true that statement was and maybe I'll do just that to my baby if I have the chance. Hehehe. We check out at 3pm and went home straight and sleep till the next morning.

2010... It will be a better year for me I hope. With the new status as a wife and what nots. :)

2009-12-06T15:34:00.003+08:00

A birthday song was sang to me exactly at midnight by Baby Bushuk, Lv and boyfren while I was sitting on my bed surfing the net. I was surprised, of course! The little round chocolate cake with 2 big and 6 small candles was really really nice la. Pity Ira couldn't join us coz she's like having a fever and so she was resting in the next room. Anyway thanks babies!

We (read: Baby Bushuk and me) then went to Bugis on Tuesday to window shop and had a great dinner at My Secret Garden which followed by a movie, Case 39 at The Cathay. It was a simple yet a fulfilling birthday. Furthermore, it's my first birthday as a wife. So spending time with the husband was definitely worth it! But I would want to have my birthday present asap okay, Baby Bushuk! Heheheh..

And yesterday, we had an outing with my father, Lv and parents-in-law to a movie, Ninja Assassin at Downtown East. I'm glad I managed to keep my promise coz father, I believe was bored during the weekends due to the absence of my mother who's currently doing her pilgrimage and will only be back on the 19 December. After the movie, we went for Coffee at The Coffee Bean. That's where I saw my father and parents-in-law talked and seem to be really comfortable with each other. I feel really blessed. Even Lv felt great at that point of time. She was happy to see father happy and enjoying himself. I promise we'll have more of these outings when mother comes back. I hope it will stay that way till the end of time. Insyallah....

The next outing I'll be looking forward to is the Batam spa and seafood trip that is happening this coming Sunday, 13 December. Wooohhoooo!! Although most of the gilerians won't be joining us, we'll have fun okay Alia and Lv!

Oh and I had this beautiful dream last night that made me slept peacefully through the night although I came back around 3 in the morning. Hope all will fall into place real soon..:)

And I thank God for all the makeup assignments that I have next year. Keep it coming...:)

Loving each and every day of my life right now as a wife, daughter, daughter-in-law and sister to all my lovelies.. Muackz!!

2009-11-30T21:20:00.002+08:00

Its been a month since our wedding. It went well as planned although there were some technical problems which was beyond our control. Photos and videos have been collected. The wedding was indeed a colourful one, thanks to the bridal outfits we have chose and our void deck deco. Thank you to all who make it happen. :)

The honeymoon that was right after was superb too. We had lots of fun although it was very tiring. We are just glad that we decided on Europe for our honeymoon coz we won't know when we would have the time and money to go again. But if I was given a chance I would definitely want to visit again. :)

Now, I'm just waiting for the good news. We're hoping that we'll be blessed with a kid soon. Hehehe..

Insyallah....

2009-07-31T09:16:00.003+08:00

Having bad dreams about the wedding since Sunday is definitely not a good thing. Now I really wonder if its a bad sign or its just a dream. Its not as if I'm having problems with boyfren but if this goes on, its somewhat torturing me phsically and mentally. I have to assure myself again and again that its all well.

Please tell me that these are just bad dreams and everyone have this too.

I hope October will come real soon coz then will I be able to put myself at ease...

2009-06-29T19:40:00.002+08:00

I just read Eqa's entry! It's in RED!! She even type an *evil grin* in her post!!!

I think I'm gonna have nightmares for my hen's night this Saturday followed by sweet dreams after it ended.

Nightmares coz I have no freaking idea what they are up to. Not even a freaking clue okay. Even Radia actually msn me last week to remind me that we are meeting this Saturday and ends it with a *Hahahhahah*.

Sweet dreams coz I know that no matter how bad the nightmare is, they put in a lot effort to do it and that its special to every one of them that it includes me. I know I will be very touched at the end of the day.

But remember this girls... Whatever you have in store for me, it will be worst when it comes to your own hen's night expecially you, Rasheeqah!!

Anyways, does that mean there won't be an annual dinner at all ladies??!! :(

2009-06-24T16:08:00.003+08:00

We (read: boyfren and me) have been having bad dreams lately about us not getting married at all. Scary!!

Yesterday, I dreamt that he left me coldly. I have to convince and calm myself down with the fact that there won't be a wedding at all. I was crying when I woke up this morning.

Told one of my colleague about it and she was saying that few months before her wedding, her husband got into an accident. So that was her misfortune. She told me about her friends' misfortune when they are left with only a few months to the wedding and its really bad.

I pray hard that won't happen and everything will be as planned coz we both want the wedding to be a reality and I've waited for quite some time for this to happen.

2009-06-18T18:52:00.003+08:00

I've been thinking of my late grandmother the past few days...
I missed her alot...
I wonder how Hari Raya would be this year without her with us...
Also, it saddens me to know that she's not there on my wedding.. :(

Love you lots, Mak!!

Al-Fateha

2009-06-10T15:42:00.002+08:00

Okay.. I'm pissed now!!

Why can't you stop bothering me huh?? Why do you need to correct me even when I'm not at fault or have given the correct explanation?? Don't you have better things to do?? Do you always think that what you did was right?? Have you ever think that when something happen to the connections or when a customer is not able to use our service is all because you 'played' with it and forgot to change it back to the normal settings??

Will you just stop doing whatever you're doing now!!?? Stop being a pain in the ass!!

It is true at times that I would be unsure of the new products as trainings were not given by you or those involved. To you, I am always not sure of the products be it new or old, theory or technically. Always telling me that you hope that my attitude will be just like when I first joined the company. Oh move on will you?? Look forward and not live in the past!! FYI, my work attitude have changed due to your own attitude towards me as there is no trust left for me or whatsoever. I have no longer the motivation to work properly at times as I will still be given negative comments by you during the appraisal. Achievement or hard work are no longer appreciated by you.

I'll stay on while I still can....

2009-06-09T13:16:00.002+08:00

Had lunch with colleagues last week at Straits Kitchen which was not to my expectations. I wolud prefer Carousel as there are more variety. Somehow Asian food when cooked by chefs in hotels is not that superb. but it doesn't matter as it was a treat from the boss. Hehehhehe. After all the food, I went for foot reflexology. I really need that as I have been busy with a friend's wedding the week before. We had waffle at Gelare after that for some desert.

Anyways, I'm feeling the stress again.. About 4 more months to go..

And it's a quite busy June for me thanks to the assignments that I have which I'm thankful for.

2009-05-24T16:33:00.002+08:00

I'm at work now and studying for my exam..

I wish my exams are in multiple choice.. hehehhe

Arrrrgggghhhhh...

2009-05-16T12:18:00.005+08:00

Oooopss.. Its been months!! Hehehehe

Seriously, this is indeed a hectic year for me. I've been busy with the wedding preparations. I enjoyed it though at times I feel like not getting married at all due to all the stress that its giving me for the past few months. There was even once that I quarrelled with my mom about the wedding preparations till we didn't talked for a week or so. Been busy too with my freelance career as a makeup artist/mak andam. Getting more assignments.:) My only wish is to have at least on a month so that my skills won't be rusty.

Anyway, lots of things have been confirmed, deposits given and lots of assurance from family and friends that it will all be alright.

Choosing of the bridal company was an easy task as I'm working with them so not that hard for me since boyfren is leaving it to me for that. Photography inclusive of oudoor shoots was even easier as we somewat have chosen to take them when they were clicking away at Alia's wedding. This was both mine and boyfren's choice. Oh and we even took this Trash The Dress thingy from them. Boyfren gave a firm yes to this when I asked about it. Hehehehhe. Videography was taken together with the bridal company and that includes the DJ/Entertainment. So 3 things was confirmed at one time. Minangkabau dias was chose for my wedding as it was mother's dream to have the wedding minangkabau style and it would be done by the Minangkabau Association Singapore itself. Also, a pair of minangkabau bridal outfits and the accessories were specially bought from Bukittinggi, Padang itself as there were none that caught my eyes here. Tentage for the amphitheatre has also been confirmed with the help of one of the uncle. Deco for the tentage and room including the home dias problem have also been settled. Rental of the amphitheatre and void deck has been done. Caterer chosen by mom was really value for money too and the food's not bad as well. Got good reviews by others about the caterer so I hope it won't be a problem when the time comes. Bridesmaids clothes are bought and given to them to be made to a pattern that I have all chosen for them. I hope you love it babes!! Siblings clothes are also bought too during my trip in Indonesia.

I guess I have said it all. Not sure if I missed out anything.

Things that are left to be done would be my gubahans and the buying of stuffs which some has already been bought. Not forgetting the parents clothes and .... Not sure what else..

That's all for the wedding preparations for now.:)

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Before I end this entry, prayers for my late grandmother, Saodah Binte Hassan would be very much appreciated.

Al-Fateha

2009-02-14T02:05:00.010+08:00

13 February 2009 @1239hrs

The day my grandmother left the world!

She was totally fine when she moved to my place in May or June 2008. She was diagnosed with rectum cancer in October or November last year. Her health was bad by end 2008 and worsen in January. She was in the hospital for about 4 to 5 times in between December to January. She was last admitted on 12 January at Singapore General Hospital.

When I reached the hospital on 13 February 2009, she has already passed. I wish I was there a few minutes earlier so that I could catch her for the very last time.

Even till now, I still feel her presence at home. It's hard to hold back my tears when someone talks about her or when I saw her stuffs at home or even looking at her photos.

A note from me to her..

Mak...

Ellis sayangkan Mak. Mak lah yang jaga Ellis dari kecik sampai lah besar. Tak pernah sekalipun Mak memarahi Ellis. Mak sentiasa beri Ellis sokongan dalam apa jua yang Ellis lakukan. Maafkanlah Ellis kerana Mak tak dapat melihat Ellis diatas pelamin sebelum Mak pergi.

Ellis minta ampun dan maaf sekiranya Ellis pernah terkasar bahasa atau melukakan hati Mak. Halalkan lah makan dan minum Ellis.

Mak akan sentiasa diingati dan dirindui...

There's more that I would like to say to her but I have to stop now coz tears are rolling down my cheeks non-stop and I can't hold it anymore!!!

Semoga Allah S.W.T menempatkan rohnya bersama orang-orang yang beriman... Amin.

2009-01-30T13:51:00.000+08:00

Happy 26th birthday boyfren!!! May you be blessed with good health and wealth always!!

I hope you'll enjoy yourself later with me at 'KL'.. Hehehehhe

2009-01-29T20:21:00.003+08:00

Its 29 January 2009 today!!

Father has turned 62 this year!! That means he has officially retire from his job as a Senior Technician in Singtel where he worked for 32 years if I'm not wrong. Not really sure if he's going to continue working after this. I hope he won't for a few months coz I just want him to relax but I bet he can as he just can't stay home and do nothing even when he's on mc or leave. Hehehhe..

Happy 62nd birthday ayah! Moga dipanjangkan umur dan dimurahkan rezeki selalu! Insyallah!!

Not forgetting, Linda, my supervisor who share the same birthday as father!! I hope you had fun today with your loved ones..

Happy 28th birthday Linda! May you be blessed with good health always and be successful in everything you do! Insyallah!!

2009-01-18T13:02:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulilah it all went well yesterday although there were some shocking and classic moments.. Heheheh.

So now I'm just waiting for that day I've been longing for since..

Lots of stuffs has to be done expecially losing weight!! Muahahhahah. Oh that's a must!!

2009-01-15T22:09:00.003+08:00

You don't want to be involve right!!! Might as well!! I'm more than glad to hear that!! Such a bastard!! How could you huh!? My family don't need people like you to call family!! Hypocrites!! Two-faced snakes!! Such a pain in the ass!!

I don't understand how you could ask someone an outsider who's just taking her clothes at your place as she doesn't have any at my place to go away and take it at the other place!! You claimed you don't wish to get involve!!?? So dun get involve in the first place!!

It's amazing how that particular someone severed all ties with the eldest sister till her death can suddenly be nice and on talking terms to that same sister. Then claimed that it was all for the sake of the sick mother?? My god!! Oh please stop giving excuses la okay!!

So now you and the eldest sister not forgetting the youngest brother are going against your elder sister (read:my mother) and the other younger brother who did help out in the situation?? Do what you want and we can't bother no more. But if it gets out of hand, I'm not going to let it rest!! I'm dead serious about it!! You guys have went too far with all your false accusations!!

For now, I forbid you to attend my wedding coz looking at your faces makes me want to come to you three and spit at your faces and give a big one bloody tight slap!!!!!!!!!!!! Yes!! Even if it means to sever all ties with you three, I am most willing!!!!!!!!!!

Just get the hell out of my life!!!!!!

2009-01-08T09:30:00.002+08:00

Currently I'm tired and sleepy although I have enough sleep. My face look like shit ah seriously. Not sure if its coz I'm not using the eyeliner.

I'm sick and tired of work nowadays. I don't feel like coming to work at all. Nothing in the office motivates me to work anymore except for the salary. Arrrggghhh!! I feel like throwing the letter to his face and get out of the place!!

Oh and I'm bored with everything that's happening within the family!!! I wonder why everyone are like that now!!?? Menopause or Andropause maybe!!?? Pissing me off big time la!!!

I'm at work now and I can't be bothered with things already!!!!!

2008-12-31T11:27:00.004+08:00

Ratu Weddings graduation ceremony went smoothly on 25th December 2008. I got the top student prize and to get that was an achievement for me! I was soooo happy till I cried when the host announced my name. Seriously I didn't expect to win. I expect the others to win as their skills are much better than mine. However, I am very glad with this win and that means I'm one step closer to achieving my dreams. I'll definitely will do my very best for all my customers!

I would like to thank my family, Elvi for being my model during my classes and being with me whenever I had assignments, Ira for tagging along when I have assignments, my parents for buying all the bridal accessories and whatnots when in overseas. Also, to my boyfren for all the support given and not complaining whenever I have assignments during the weekends and the days when I have my classes. Not forgetting to good friends, the SNB ladies and the gilerian ladies especially Alia for all the encouraging words to do my very best. Also, to all the others who have been encouraging and supporting me. Without you all, I wouldn't have made it to the top three!!

Thank you once again to you know who you are for all the support given! Appreciate it all very much!

251208 was also a happening day for a good friend of mine, Eqa as she was engaged to her boyfriend for 5 years. I'm glad that this day came after all that you guys have gone through. I am super happy for you. So now I'm just waiting for the BIG day in 2010!!

Congrats to you both, Eqa and Aid!!!!

Oh by the way, Batam trip was great! Spa was superb, shopping was fun and eating was our favourite thing to do there. We just can't stop expecially boyfren. Whenever he saw the vendor selling corn cup, he will buy. I somehow think that he bought it at every shopping centre we went. We're definitely going again!! Probably in Feb, I hope.. Hehehhe..

Tomorrow is the start of 2009. I hope it will be a great year.. Lots of stuff to look forward to next year!!!

Have fun celebrating today!!

Happy New Year to all!!!!!

2008-12-29T17:29:00.002+08:00

Happy 21st birthday my dearest sister, Nur Elviana!!

May you be blessed with good health and be happy!!!

Enjoy your day today!!!!!

2008-12-17T17:25:00.002+08:00

Grandmother was admitted to the SGH last Friday as she hit her head on the wall and vomitted a few times that day. She's still in the hospital now and I guess she won't be coming home for now as there are a few more checks has to be done on her. Her cancer cells has spread to other areas and her condition has worsen. She seems to be forgetting stuffs nowadays and she can no longer walk on her own. I just hope that after she had her operation, she will be better.

Grandfather is still the way he is. He's agenda everyday will be sleep, wakeup, bathe, eat and watch tv. When he had enough, he will get back to sleep. Whenever we went to visit Grandmother at the hospital, we will let him know and his reply would be to send his regards to Grandmother. I sometimes do wonder if he really knows what we are talking about.

Currently, we have a maid to take care of the grandparents stuff. So wherever they stay, she will follow too. Smart girl I would say. For now, she's okay. Hope that it will still be that way in months to come.

Also, today babies will be staying at the hospital at night to help to look after Grandmother. It's their second night there. They brought the portable DVD player and PSP to keep them company other than each other. I wish I could help but I'm on the afternoon shift today, the day after and morning shift on Friday.

The spa trip in Batam has been confirmed. I just can't wait as my body is currently aching. Also, its my first time there. Has been wantuing to go but never did. I have a list of stuff to buy thanks to all the orders from my Ratu classmates.

Later tonight, I'll be going to West Coast Mcdonalds to celebrate Eddy's birthday. Weeeee!!!

2008-12-16T09:28:00.008+08:00

30 December 2008

I was told to bring clothes only. I was told nothing of my birthday celebration that was planned by the boyfren. From the wedding at Ang Mo Kio, we ride to Marina and there I thought that boyfren's bringing me to Singapore Flyer. I was super happy of course since I've not been to one. Anyway, I was clueless to where we're going to when we turn right after the first traffic light. He then rode up to The Ritz Carlton Millenia Singapore carpark and I was like, "Stupid ah you!! Bluff me say cannot book already!!" Syawal and Erika were there too so all went up to the lobby and checked in. At that moment when we checked in, I was like super happy as I've always wanted to stay in one and boyfren made it come true for me. Up in the room, we watched tv, ate KFC and waited for Alia and Kudud to come. Jay came in the evening when me and Erika went to Marina Square to get some drinks. We didn't expect it to be that near! A while later, the newlyweds came. Again, I was surprised with a cake which I didn't see them bring at all. And it was my favourite choc truffle!! Sooo nice of them. After the cake cutting, we watched Senario which was hilarious. Around midnight or so, they left us all alone in that big room. I decided to have a bubble bath in the tub after a long day. It was very nice soaking in the tub at night with the lights from ECP.

01 December 2008

We checked out of the hotel in the afternoon. Initially wanted to go to town but it was raining heavily so yeah we settled for Marina Square instead and have Billy Bombers for lunch. Its been awhile since I ate there. Yummy I love the steak there! We walked around and decided to meet the rest at Piaggio as we had scheduled for a Karaoke session at 7pm, Ming Arcade. We got a room for all 9 of us and sang like no one cares till 10.30pm. All went home right after that as it's a working day for all of us the next day. I slept over at boyfren's place and got to know that his mom bought me a Coach bag. Isn't she nice!? And the bag is nice too!! Hehehe.

05 December 2008

Met SNB at City Hall MRT Station. Me and Radia was blindfolded there and then!! Clueless to where we were going. Lots of walking taddaaaa.. there we are at Singapore Flyer. They wanted to get us in but the weather don't allow us to do so. So we sat at the ice-cream kiosk. ate some and got our presents. Aizah and Irin gave me a set of Doll Me Up makeup stuff! I like! We walked around after resting our feets and took a bus and stop at Peninsula Shopping Center. There at the 7-Eleven, we were blinfolded again and walked again. This time I can feel that it was nearby thanks to the short walk but I still have no idea where we were. Once reached, we were ordered to open the blindfolds and look around and guess where we are. Seriously I have no idea. I was told that we were at Loof. Radia had always wanted to go there. We ordered some drinks and finger food. We chat and camwhore too. I felt like goin home after that coz I was full and sleepy. Hehehe. We then took a cab and walked again to Marriott Hotel. Then we got to know that the last stop was Barnone. Suddenly not sleepy at all!! Hahahhaha. Both of us made a wish and blow candles there and had fun. We went home right after. I had fun walking all the way and blindfolded to places that they had planned.

That's how I celebrated my birthday!!

Ladies, thank you soooo much for the great walk and all that you had planned for us both! I appreciate it all very much!! Luv u all!!

Boyfren,, you're the best! Thank you for the stay in Ritz!!! I luv you!!! Muackz!!

2008-12-12T13:25:00.008+08:00

I know I'm supposed to blog about my birthday celebrations with SNB and boyfren but I just don't have the mood to do so.

I can't believe that 4 1/2 months past sooo fast. I'm done with the lessons for the Diploma in Business Administration. Nope, I'm not a diplomat yet. Exam results for the Business Practise and Business Administration have yet to be known and my upcoming Practical Computing Exam which has been scheduled on 15 & 16 December has yet to be done. By March or April, that's when I would be able to know if I passed all 3 modules and if I don't, I have to retake the exams.

Now, I'm looking forward to my hopefully-confirmed Batam spa trip since Bangkok is already out of my list thanks to their chaotic state, my Ratu Weddings graduation cum launching, Eqa's special day, Aizah's birthday celebration, Elvy's birthday celebration and the New Year Eve.

Boyfren!!! I luv you!!! Hehehehehe..

2008-12-07T17:25:00.003+08:00

Hackers.. What do they gain by hacking others msn or accounts??? I wonder what coz my MSN got hacked a few days ago. My nick shows 'I want to commit suicide'. What a nick!!?? After that nick was put up, frens of mine showed their concern and was replied with all the vulgarities. I guess he/she is trying to give me a bad reputation with all my frens. I'm just glad that most of them somehow knew that it was not me they are msning with. Lucky me..

Life goes on as usual. I'm currently at work now waiting for the 24mins to pass and I can go home. Babies are fetching me later while boyfren is at Tuas practising with his Gilera for the upcoming race on 14 December. Unfortunately on the very same day, I have an engagement assignment to do so I won't be around to see him race.

My birthday celebration with SNB was great. Not forgetting the birthday surprise by boyfren was superb too!! I shall update you guys on that in my next entry okay.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha everybody!!!!

2008-12-05T13:31:00.003+08:00

Gosh!! I just finish eating Mee Soto for lunch. My stomach feels like its going to burst anytime soon!! I shouldn't have ate lunch today as I had eaten Lontong for breakfast.

Anyway, I'll be meeting SNB later in the evening for mine and Radia's birthday celebration and I have no clue where we are going. Wonder what they are up to this time. No not the G-Max thingy please coz I'm afraid of heights!!!

Be nice, ladies!!

2008-11-29T12:04:00.003+08:00

21 November 2008.

The day SNB celebrated Erlina's birthday. I joined them only after work which is around 10.30pm. I met them at Dhoby Ghaut MRT station where i sat all alone waiting for them to reach. It was nice to see the fresh new look from them! We walked to The Cathay and linger around for awhile before we took a bus to Eski Bar, Boat Quay. Its just like every other pubs you can find in Boat Quay but the unique thing about it is that there's this small area in the bar which is super duper cold that you will definitely walked to when you're going in and out of the bar. I like it though. After all the talking and eating, we headed to Shah Alam. Erlina left earlier while we got a cab only around 5am. I hope you had fun babe!

27 November 2008.

SNB celebrated Eqa's birthday at Marriott Hotel. SNB was in the room earlier to do all the neccessary arrangements. She meet me and Irin at Mc Cafe Lido around 11pm. We walked to Marriott with the excuse I need to make payments using Citibank Atm.Then, we 'waited' for the rest to reach and while doing so, we blindfolded her. 'Waited' awhile more then we walked her in rounds before we went up to the room. In the room, it was totally dark! I open her blindfold and we all sang her a birthday song. While we were eating and talking, we switch off the lights again to bring her the birthday cake which she obviously knows. Hahahhaha. Around 2.30am, we went down to Barnone for a short entertainment and went up the room around 4.30am or so. Aizah went home as she had something that day. Me and Irin had breakfast while Eqa and Radia were sleeping although Radia had ordered her breakfast! Gosh!! Anyway, I hope you had fun babe although it was a simple one!

So that's it!! The November birthday celebrations are done with!! Now its time for the December birthday celebrations! Yeay! Can't wait!!!

So my birthday is in 2 days. Boyfren have been asking what to do on my birthday and what I want for my birthday. Seriously, I have no idea!! I'm currently contented with what I have now but there is one thing that I'm looking forward to which is next year. Heheheh.

And I know that my blog is boring now as there isn't any photos to look at thanks to me being lazy.

Anyway, later I'll be dolling up one of the multiplier and her fren for their DnD at Ritz Carlton Hotel. I'm just glad to have assignments. I hope there will be more assignments for me!!

2008-11-17T18:54:00.002+08:00

I'm done with the Business Practise and Business Admin exams. I'm not sure if I can pass both. Hehehehe..

Let's talk about the happy stuff....

Last Friday, me and boyfren went to Juli and Rais wedding dinner that was held at Choa Chu Kang CC. The deco was nice and the dais was pretty. The outfits that she wore from Ratu Wedding was awesome too. I wish I have the pictures to show but too bad I didn't bring the camera.

Last weekend was spent at Alia's solemnisation and wedding. She looked super pretty. I've never seen her in full makeup so yes, thanks to Yaqyn for the makeup. The deco at the void deck was done pretty well too by Uncle Jais. Everything went well for her. I'm happy for you babe.

After the wedding on Sunday, we went to karaoke at Cash Studio, Ming Arcade. I had lots of fun with the dangdut dance from the guys and we basically cheered whenever someone started to sing.

Everyone went home after that whereas me, boyfren and J went to Mustafa Centre to get some makeup stuff for the solemnisation assignment on Sunday given by Mummy that I will be doing for the very first time. I hope everything will go well!!

Oh!!! I'm soooo looking forward to meet SNB girls this Friday too for the Erlina's birthday celebration!! And I heard all has cut their hair short too.. Can't wait to see the new look!!

Till then... Muacks!!!

2008-10-22T13:47:00.000+08:00

Happy 3rd anniversary, baby!!!

May our dreams come true!!!

Loving you!! Muackz!!!

2008-09-24T21:59:00.001+08:00

Somehow... I wish I'm dead right now...

2008-09-11T10:38:00.002+08:00

Grandmother has been whining, crying and what not. She has been talking nonsense too. I pity her alot but sometimes I get irritated.

Why!!!???

Coz I am trying to pretend that there's nothing wrong with her and that she is fine. I know that I'm in denial but the result of the second opinion is not out yet so I shall pray for the best. Even if it turns out the other way round, I'll make the most of it.

I hope that both the grandparents will live to see my wedding and my kids.

I love them as much as I love my parents.

Pray with me...

2008-09-09T11:06:00.002+08:00

Monday was the first time in my 3 years working with the company, we had iftar together. This is all thanks to Jason for implementing a gathering every month. So since it is the fasting month, we had it at Chai Chee Restaurant. We ordered 12 dishes including steamboat and yam basket for all 12 of us. Too much isn't it? But we managed to finish most of it. It was a very quick and short gathering.

I meet up with the gilerians ladies named Art, Alia, Anis, Ayu, Fify and Yana at Tanjong Katong Complex right after that. I didn't buy clothes yet as I'm not interested in any but I did buy other stuff which is not for Hari Raya. Hehehehehe.

We had fun although it rain heavily when we were all going to Wayang to meet the guys.

And sorry to Yana and Anis, we didn't mean to leave the both of you as we didn't expect the guys to be there to fetch us.

2008-09-03T21:31:00.012+08:00

Had a great day last wednesday with SNB to celebrate Irin's 25th birthday. It was of course an advance birthday celebration for her as the actual date falls on the eve of Ramadan.

We met at Marriott hotel and there was when Irin was blindfolded. Hehehehehhe!! Then, took a bus to Pasir Panjang Ferry Terminal where Irin was still blindfolded. We onboard the boat and Irin still was not allowed to take the blindfold off. She was only allowed to take it off when her food was already served. That moment was super touching ah eh!? The boat thingy ended only around 8.30pm.

The touching moment!!!

Next was to Cash Studio at Ming Arcade where Radia sang as if the songs were monotone. Hehehehe!! It's been awhile since we went karaoke together. I had a great time there with Radia's dance and all till I can't sing properly at times.

It didn't end there though. But I do know Irin thought that was all for her celebration.

We took a cab to Clarke Quay with Irin blindfolded again. The best thing was she thought only her and Aizah was in the cab whereas I was there too and the suprise was suppose to be at Aizah's place. Hhahahhaha. While waiting for the rest to reach, Aizah was giving her all kinds of excuses like the surprise is that her boyfren is actually on his way to surprise her etc. I still can remember how she reacted when she heard that from Aizah. Hahahhahha.

The rest came and we all walked to this place near to the river for that last surprise. When she took off her blindfold, all of us sang a birthday song, get her to make a wish, blow the candles and took some pics. I wonder how she felt.

Since all the surprises are done with, we party all night long at Attica till don't know what time. Had our supper at the usual place, Spize and ended it with goodbye kisses.

Reach home at 6am. Lucky me, I was off that day so I managed to have a good sleep before I wake up and go to school.

2008-08-27T09:50:00.004+08:00

I hate you eversince we had that argument 10 years back!!
You have never stop doing things to ruin my life!!

Take good fucking care of your wife and family first!!

Complaining to the parents is all you can do!!??
Be a man and talk to me straight to the face!!

You're such a pain in the ass okay!!
Get lost from my life!!
I don't wish to see you at all!!
Don't bother to come to my wedding!!

I don't have a brother like you ever since that day!!
I only have one and only brother that is Arwah Mohamed!!

As an adult, I've wanted to make things right but what's the point when you just can't stop doing things. I've seriously had enough of you!!

Get lost, asshole!!!

2008-08-24T16:10:00.003+08:00

Business Practice will be done by Tuesday and Thursday will be the first lesson for Business Admin. BP although its general stuff, it is abit hard for me as I'm not able to relate it to work so I just have to keep reading and understand it. Not sure about BA though, but I heard its easier.

I hope I can good results for both when I sit for the exam in November...

Yesterday was spent at East Coast with the gilerians. Although it was raining, we managed to make it happen. The men were busy fishing, gambling or singing. Whereas, the ladies were either in the tent watching dvds or lingering around. It was great. Something different than the usual riding agenda.

Thanks to that, my eyes are kinda heavy now. Just can't wait to be home although I know that I may not sleep but I just wanna lie on the bed and relax..

2008-08-20T08:56:00.003+08:00

I'm regretting it..

When the time comes again, things will change.

I'll definitely be more happy to have it..

And 2009, please make it happen!!! :)

2008-08-15T18:41:00.002+08:00

Good news!!!

Boyfren passed his TP!! At last!!

No more of me driving for him.. Yeay!!

And damn the boyfren for cheating me of my feelings when he first told me that he failed till I met him later and found out myself that he passed.. Booo!!!!

2008-07-18T19:21:00.002+08:00

Woohooo!!! Hehehehehhe!!!

Tomorrow is my theory exam with Kimarie and I've not made any revisions yet. I just hope that last minute revisions later tonight will do wonders tomorrow. Not forgetting the practical exam which will be on next Friday. Thanks to that, I have 4 gowns at home, waiting to be worn but only 1 will be worn by Lv that day and I hope I'll have time to get the traditional clothes!!

Speaking of which, I just had my first lesson in Business Practice yesterday for the Diploma in Business Administration. It was okay. The funny part is when me and boyfren entered the room, the teacher saw us and said "The only guy in the class and so he will be the thorn among the roses!" Hahahhaha. I was shocked too that he's the only one but who cares. Everyone actually thought that he was forced into it which is not true coz he wants to upgrade himself as well. We were classmates for that 3 hours and it was quite dry due to the subject. Boyfren was able to absorb most of it which I can't. I believe I would be able to absorb too if I read it through again. Overall, it was great to have your boyfren as your classmate coz we can push each other when we don't feel like it and we will be able to help each other in every way possible. We can do it baby!!

So Sunday will be a busy day for me as well thanks to Mas and Linda for the makeup assignment. Not only that, I actually have a wedding to attend that day with Ira at Tampines. So I'll be like waking up by 7.30am or so rush to Sembawang, then back home to rest while waiting for Ira to get ready then to Tampines for the wedding and right after that to Toa Payoh. I'll be done by 6pm i hope. Nevertheless, thanks to Mas and Linda again for trusting me with your faces!! Hahahahhaha!!

One last update before I go!!

I am super fat already i think coz I just can't stop eating!!!! Muahahahhahahaha!!!

2008-05-23T21:39:00.002+08:00

It saddens me to see grandmother crying as if she was at fault!! Grandmother even voluntered to leave just because she doesn't want to see his family fall apart as he have kids who are still young and needs attention!!

What has happen to this world huh!!??

How could you possibly choose your wife over your own mother who has been there for you since the day you were born till you're married with kids??
How could you possibly let your wife step on you just like that huh!!??
And to think she actually forget her roots!!??
If she wants her own space, let us know nicely and not by giving all kinds of excuses to grandmother!!??
Do what you deem fit but give her back her things so that she can live her old age at ease!!

I've lost all respect for both of them!! Remember what goes around comes around!!
I'm furious and freaking angry and if I were to meet them one day, I'll definitely tell them off!!
This is just too much!! Its sooo unfair!!

If only I'm rich and all, I'll definitely support both my grandparents. For now, I promise to do whatever I can just for her. I'm just her grandchild who's willing to help but him as her child can't do so!! Just got to hell la!!

This is a good lesson for me and I promise I'll never do that to my parents..

2008-05-22T04:10:00.003+08:00

Busy!!??

Quite but with nothing much really and just some random thoughts.. Hehehehhe

First, the prison break marathon with the babies and the boyfriends. It was one of the weekends when the parents were not at home from Saturday till Monday. Happening like shit coz we have the whole house to ourselves. We fill the whole house with smoke and even had dinner like a family. It was fun as usual and I'm proud to say that I was the last woman watching it all by myself till it ended. It started from 8pm till around 8am for me but not the rest coz most have gone to dreamland as early as 1am or so. Tiring it is but I enjoyed every minute of it!

Second, a cousin's wedding that I was not told earlier by my parents which I dunno why. Maybe Mother thought I am still a kid that won't have any interest in any of the nonsense that the family had. But I'm glad that I could make it although I has a lunch date with my colleagues that Saturday. I hope all goes well for the newly wed couple!

Third, the makeup lessons that I have to finish by July which is my exam date. I had fun dolling Lv for that and thanks to her, I managed to be better in it. I'm currently looking forward to my exam to be done with so that I can concentrate on my facial lessons and to graduate by end of this year too. I just can't wait for that and to start doing freelance in this profession!

Fourth, things happen to the grandparents that it hurts me sooo much to see them in that state. They are currently sleeping over at my place for a week now which none of us (read: my family) mind even if they were to stay for a longer period of time. Our doors are always open just for them. Memories of them taking care of us siblings when the parents are out working their asses off to make sure that we are given the most of education and a luxury hassle-free life. I would do anythin to make them feel at home. That's my promise!

Fifth, going in and out of JB just to make sure everything's done right on the Gilera. It's all not done yet since we send it back again to correct the errors made. Arrgghhh!! I hope it will be done by Friday or I shall not pay whatever I owe them coz they just can't do it right!! I am super mad okay!!

Sixth, work has been hard with those who thinks that I have an attitude problem going on. I don't think I have one since all the works given to me was done by the end of the day no matter how. I was even shocked to noe that my boss actually noes about me looking for a job which I am not. I'm currently sending out resumes just to test the market but if he wants me to go, I shall. However, I'm still gonna stick with the job till I really can't take it. I'm just glad to have a supervisor who understands and thanks to her, I'm staying till this very day. And to Linda, be happy okay. It's good to see you happy these days!! To the whoever, whatever!! Think what you want to coz it will not bring me down and I shall prove to you that I actually dun have an attitude problem to start with!

Seventh, I've been thinking about my future recently so I've decided to upgrade myself and boyfren will be joining me as well. I hope it will do good for both of us.

Eighth, I've been having thoughts about 'it' and wants 'it' to happen on that very day. Insyallah.

Ninth, I pray that all will be just fine and will be better with time. Other than that, I'm okay..

Not forgetting, I hope there will be more errands for me. Hahhahah. So that I can meet Eqa and be lost in some other parts of Singapore!! And SNB, when are we meeting ehk!!?? Long time never meet you all already tau!! So please do me a favour and fixed the date. It doesn't matter if we're meeting only for dinner coz I noe it may end up late just like our previous meetups. Or maybe, we shall have another chalet to spend time? How's that?

Also, boyfren and me are still loving each other!! In 5 months time on the exact date, it will be our 3 years together and 10 years knowing each other!!

However, the ending of our love story has yet to be written...

2008-05-02T09:24:00.003+08:00

On the eve of Labour day was Irian Firqhan's birthday celebration!!

It was held at Home Team Chalet. It was fun of course meeting Nonoi, Ayu, Ajal, Fakir and the rest of the gang. It's been awhile since we met. I am missing those days when we will meet at East Coast for drinking session and get high for no reason at all. That was fun, isn't it!!??

Oh that night, we had a crazy drinking session. The guys were all forced to drink neat and there was no cup too. One of the guys will pour the drink in their mouth and will only stop after they finish counting to 3000. Hahahhaha.

Forget to mention that I met my Temasek Primary classmate, Marini too. I've not seen her since Primary 6 and she still look the same.

Poor boyfren, he had to work the next morning so while the rest were sleeping, we tiptoed to the door and headed to boyfren's place.

When boyfren was busy reading his meters, I was peacefully asleep. When he came home, boyfren as usual wakes me up.

We had our hair done and he sent me home after that as I'm in the morning shift.

I wish I don't have to work today.

2008-04-30T21:07:00.000+08:00

Last Monday, I had to run some errands so I got Eqa to be my co-pilot. I fetch her at around 8.30pm.

First stop was at Hillview Drive which we had a hard time finding it for about 15 to 30 minutes. So Eqa got help from Hamdan whom I've not met for awhile. He was sweet enough to actually check it in the street directory and thanks to him, we managed to find the place. So now I know that Hillview Drive is actually in between the two streets of Hillview Crescent.

Second stop was at Choa Chu Kang Street 51 which we were about to get lost too. Lucky us, we managed to contact Irin for the directions and we found it. Thanks luv.

Right after that, we went to Simpang Bedok to have dinner as I've not eaten the whole day. I managed to get updates of her life for the last few months since the chalet thingy with SNB was the last we met. It was good to know things are fine now for her and boyfren, Aid. I just can't wait to write that speech that you asked me too when you guys get married. When the time comes, I'm sure I won't have anything to write. Hehe..

We stayed there till 1.30am or so and fetch Aid from Tampines Mart to go to Mustafa Centre. Aid was actually very tired since he was from work and he actually wanted to got the next day instead but he still go ahead with it. That's soooo nice of him. It's been awhile since I met him and I was very chatty that night with the couple. Right, Eqa? So we bought a few things and headed home.

Aid was sent home first followed by Eqa. When I reached my carpark, it was full as usual so I actually had to go to the other carpark to park the car. Elvy was very nice to meet me at the carpark to help me bring home the stuffs although it was like 3.30 in the morning.

So I was a very happy happy girl that nite. I love you guys sooo much.

2008-04-27T14:56:00.002+08:00

I had a great time goin out with the babies and their boyfrens although something happen during the first two hours of the night out. The plan was totally different last night.

We met at around 8pm for dinner at Billy Bombers. I simply love the steak there and the chocolate milkshake. We were very full by then. Instead of going to the movies like we always do, we went for a karaoke session at Cash Studio, Ming Arcade. We spent 3 hours of singing till around 1.30am.

Then we decided to go to Golden Mile Tower for a pool session but since Ira and boyfren are not joining us, I thought maybe we should go to East Coast for a bowling session. When we reached East Coast at around 2.15am, there were no more slots as it was closing soon. So we (read: me and boyfren also elvy and boyfren) think and think where we should go instead coz there aren't many places for us to chill at night as most places closed early nowadays.

We finally decided on a pool session at Golden Mile Tower. So the two riders and pillions headed back to ECP, exit Rochor and parked in front of the Golden Mile Tower. Me and boyfren was quite shocked when we went in the pool place as there were people smoking. You see, there aren't many places where we can still smoke indoors hence the shocking expressions.

Boyfren and Elvy boyfren played the first game of pool followed by Elvy and boyfren, me and boyfren then Elvy and me. Subsequent games after that were played by boyfren and Elvy boyfren as me and Elvy were hooked on that photo thingy game for a while till our eyes get very tired and teary. We came back to the boyfrens and just sat down and chat about stuffs.

By the time the boyfrens decided it was the last game, it was already like 5.15am and I am like working later at 10.30am. Elvy and boyfren decided to go for breakfast after that while me and boyfren headed home.

Later this morning, I woke up like 9.30am thanks to mother or I would have been late for work again today. So that was like only 2 hours or so beauty sleep for me. I felt so not good ah.

Now, I am just waiting for my shift to end at 4.30pm and I guess I won't be going home straight as I want to go and shop around for the stuffs I need later when I do my things.

So thats it..

Once in awhile like the above for me now is fine but can't do it most days though. I do wonder how I can do this few years back when most of the days when I go clubs the previous night and work at 8.30 later in the morning!! Oh not forgetting those days when I club almost every day with Eqa and we don't feel tired or anything. Amazing la!!

Hmmm.. I guess age is catching up on me eh?? Speaking of which, I just can't believe that I will be 25 in December!!! Time really flies that fast when you reached the big 2. Don't you think so??

I shall end it here now or I won't stop coz I am bored right now..

2008-04-25T21:53:00.002+08:00

Yeay!! I'll be going home in a few minutes. Boyfren will not be fetching me later coz he have to settle his bike at JB.

So I'll be home resting, doing things that I hope will turn out just fine, watch HBO my long time favourite and watch all the dvds that we bought all the way from the causeway.

I just can't wait!!

Enjoy the weekend everyone!

2008-04-23T10:14:00.003+08:00

These days, I felt like submitting a resignation letter. Reason being that whatever I do or did were not right in the eyes of some. They asked questions like why has my attitude changed since then, why are the part time staffs are not well trained and etc. You always tell me that you knew what has been going on although you're not always there but in actual fact I don't think you know as much.

For example, the part time staffs are trained at the same time but its just too bad that some are a bit slow in learning hence you might think that they are not well trained. My attitude has changed due to your own doings coz you have never appreciated what we did as a team or individual. No matter how we do those things, you will tend to amend it. Sometimes it feels like it is of no point for us to do things you asked coz it will be amended by you anyway.

Another thing which I am very disappointed is that some has been calling us low educated and childish people. What do you get by calling us that? Satisfaction and happiness? Nah.. I don't think so. Are you that highly educated and are you not childish at times with your family members and what nots?

Remember that when you point a finger at people, four fingers are pointing at you back. A person with such 'maturity' will not stoop as low as calling people names. You do realise that you are living in a multi-racial country rite. You reap what you sow.

So now, I shall see how long more I can stay in this company or maybe I shall just start sending resume..

Or maybe I shall just stay home with boyfren supporting me..

2008-04-20T19:02:00.011+08:00

Last Tuesday, I brought Elvi to my class at Kimarie as she'll be my model for the makeup exam. So this is how she look like after the makeup I did on her.

Do you think it's ok? Coz it think I've improved a bit on doing the eye makeup but more practise has to be done to make it perfect.

On Wednesday, it was Mother's 54th birthday. No celebrations or whatsoever coz we (read: me, Elvi and Ira) will be getting her a present for her birthday and Mother's Day all in one. So that day, I sent her a birthday message only. Hope she's not sad coz there isn't any present for her eh. Hehehehe. I love you , Mother!!

As for the Gilera, it was already out actually last 2 weeks. It turn out really nice but it has to be sent back to JB due to some things which are not done right so boyfren and me has to make do with the Spark for now till it's ready next week. Well that's what the Abang 'Bole' said to us. I am hoping it will be done by then.

And earlier today, I was invited to Wiwit's wedding at Bedok South. Boyfren and me went with Alia and Kudut. It was super nice. The deco, the dais and the bride herself was very pretty. Too bad, I'm unable to take photos with the couple coz I have to go home and get ready for work.

I wonder how my wedding will be. Will it be as pretty?? Hmmm. We shall wait for that day to come and then decide for myself.

2008-04-08T09:10:00.003+08:00

Hmmm.. I heard from the boyfren that the bike may be done by today!!! How great is that?? Ahhh.. After months of waiting.. Hehehehe..

So I shall just wait for the boyfren to call me up with the good news later in the afternoon but even if boyfren call me with bad news, I'll be fine coz I know that it will be done by this week.

And oh its great to see someone smiling whenever they got new stuff for themselves. Their happy faces always make me feel great too as if I was the one receiving it.

So Julie I hope you're happy with the new laptop.

To Mas and Linda, be patient and it will be with you soon..

Speaking of which, Mas is due on June and I can't wait to see that baby girl of hers!! Linda, get well and dun be degil and go to the doctor. You've lost too much weight!!

And me!!! Go and lose weight or boyfren will leave you!!! Hahhahahah.

2008-04-02T12:30:00.002+08:00

Aaarrrrggghhh!!! I dun feel good now and I dun want to do any work today can!!??

I've been having this flu with me for 3 days now and its soooo irritating. Lucky me, tomorrow is my off day so I shall rest the whole day but I can't. Reason is mother has been pestering me to get a new blender which suddenly died on us last week and mother has been doing it the traditional way. Kesian eh?? So I shall get it for her tomorrow and resty only half a day.

And today, I got to go JB with boyfren to collect his gilera but we won't be able to ride it yet till its all ready at Mach Speed. I hope it will be ready by this week though.

Sian ah!!! Boringggg!!!

2008-03-26T21:43:00.002+08:00

I'm restless.. Super duper tired... Been helping out the boyfren from morning till afternoon then off to work till 10pm.. But what to doooo... Cinta itu buta!!! Hahhhahhhahha..

I guess it will only end by Friday but Saturday and Sunday will be busy too as there's an event coming up and I guess I'll be going that is if the boyfren wants me too. If he doesn't want me there, I'll be home resting. Heheheheh..

Gilera!! Make sure you turn out great ok or else all the sacrifices we made for you and not forgeting the cash we spent on you will all go to waste..

2008-03-23T21:45:00.003+08:00

I totally didnt realize that it has been 11 days since I last blog. Hmmm.. I guess I'm just plain lazy or busy with other things that are much more important. Hehehehehe.

My holiday outings were great except for 1 which I failed to attend that is the SNB day to Escape Theme Park. Thousands and millions apologies to the girls for failing to wake up at the right time and missing every moment spent. Sorry girls.. Its all thanks to the nite out to Double O with the gilera babes and my babies. Heheheh. I had a great time with the gilera babes although it was my first time clubbing with them and without the guys. My babies were cute too, dancing and drinking all nite long.

Yesterday was Yati's 26th birthday. It was a surprise for her at Singapore Flyer where the candles were lit for her and a birthday song were sang by all the gilerians specially for her. I hope she had a great time.

Right after that, it was MOS for me, boyfren and his SP colleagues. It was a tiring day for me so I actually fell asleep in the club which was not supposed to happen unless I'm drunk. Hahahahha. I went home straight after that.

I woke up at 2pm this afternoon feeling fresh but still tired and now I'm done with work.

Just nice!!!

2008-03-12T09:02:00.006+08:00

Hmmm.. Eversince we moved to the new office, everything was not in the order and more stuffs to do which I dun mind. But to that particular someone who has not been doing anything, please do not take us as one of your robots. Things will be done for you no matter wat as we cant afford to be attack and complained by you but just give us more time to do it.

Spare a thought for us will you??

And eversince I moved to the new office, boyfren has been busy with his work too. He has been working 12 hours straight from 8am till late. He's been complaining of body aches the past few days. Being a nice girlfriend, I massaged him last night. While doing that, I told him that next week there's a holiday which is Good Friday. His reply,"Holiday or not, I still have to work.. Haiz.." My reply to him,"It's ok baby.. Coz at the end of every month for the whole 6 months, you will be smiling from ear to ear when you looked at the payslip and the cash that's in your account k.." Seriously, boyfren has been very hardworking since March started. He took overtime everyday that his knee aches sometimes when going up and down the stairs. Pity him really but looking at his smiling and happy face whenever he told me about his pay till date, I'm just glad to have him.

Oh and he once asked me if we shall go to Maldives or New York or anywhere else for a holiday as all holiday plans for the year were cancelled due to his work. And I told him that I would love too but before that we shall put some savings aside first for the future then decide where we can go with the balance of it...

Oh!!! I am sooo in love with him still!!!

2008-03-06T08:43:00.004+08:00

Had a great time with SNB at Costa Sands Resort for 3 days 2 nights. Great food and company, what more would I ask for.

I came to the chalet at around 9pm as I was working that Sunday. Everyone wore orange top that night. We had a BBQ and drinking session and not forgetting the camwhoring. The rest slept at 4am while me and Eqa continued our storytelling till 6 in the morning.

The next day, I woke up at around 11am by Eqa's voice as she was talking on the phone. My body ache like mad thanks to the mattress. Without bathing at all, just brushing teeth and washing face, we went out for cycling. Had Mcdonalds and Burger King for lunch. That was really a breezy one. We even played on the swings and the spider web thingy which I dun dare to climb as I'm afraid of heights. Hehehe. We returned to the chalet at around 4pm, watched tv, bathe and waited for food to be delivered by Eqa as her mother will be cooking Fried Rice for all of us. We then decided to order KFC also. We waited and waited till around 9pm to have dinner. That was a really good dinner. We ate like have never eaten before. Hahahhaa. We had drinking session and games like Bluff after that. And that night, everyone slept very soundly.

The next morning was time to go.

Oh and I missed my boyfren sooo much that I went over to his place that evening!!! Hehehehe..

2008-03-02T00:50:00.001+08:00

I wish I could give up on you...

But I just can't...

Coz you're a part of me...

Therefore I need to...

2008-02-28T11:22:00.001+08:00

Arrrggggghhhhh!!!!!!!

I trusted you and this is what you did to me!!!?????
You lied to me and tell me all the shitty stuff!!??

Where did it all go huh!!???

2008-02-27T19:21:00.002+08:00

Currently the office is in a big mess with all the boxes and what nots. Even my security thingy has been removed. Other departments have not finished packing yet and my department too as we need most files till Friday.

And since I'm on afternoon shift, I'll be the last one to leave the office on Friday.

Seriously after working in this location for 2 years now, I will be missing this place as its very convenient. Its near to my school, shopping centres and most places that I often go to.

So Saturday, all of us will be at the new place which is at Tanjong Pagar. I kinda like that place too as its near to Amara Hotel where I love to shop whenever I'm there and it's soooo much bigger that the current one and where I'll be sitting at will be away from most people. Heheheheh..

But the shitty thing is I'll be working still on Sunday. But again nevermind as I'm on leave the next following day till Thurs!!!

Yeeeehhhooooo!!!!

2008-02-17T18:37:00.009+08:00

Valentines day were spent with frens.

I was lucky to knocked off early than expected that night due to some circumstances. Boyfren fetch me at 8.30pm that nite, went to Forum shopping centre for KFC and Subway takeaways. We went to meet Wan at his workplace as it's been awhile since we met.

We had our so-called Valentines dinner while updating each other about our life. Ming came awhile later and that was when I was ignored while the boys (read: Boyfren and Ming) played their PSP. I really think I should get one soon if this keeps happening. Hmmm.. I soooo will!!

At around 11pm, we decided to have drinks at Adam's Corner coffeshop where we stayed for 3 hours or so although everyone's working the following day.

2008-02-13T20:31:00.001+08:00

A big thank you to Linda for the appraisal!!

I will continue to work hard for you!!!

Thanks once again, Linda!!!

2008-02-11T20:48:00.000+08:00

Ooooppppppsssss!!!

My appraisal has been shift from 2pm to 11am due to some circumstances. I'm not asking for much as I heard that last year wasn't that good for the company. One thing that I hoped for is I will get what I deserved for all the hardwork excluding that one complaint by that customer.

However, a good increment and a minimum of 2 month bonus would be great though..

So tomorrow it will be up to Linda and my boss for the above!!!

Pray for me, will you??

2008-02-10T03:29:00.000+08:00

Im back from Port Dickson with family. It was a very relaxing holiday. Not much things to do there though. It was a 3 days 2 nights trip at Tiara Beach Resort. The place was too far in. It's not even near to the beach but the pool was great.

On Wednesday night at around 11pm, we went to JB to sleepover as we were afraid that there will be traffic jams at the Causeway. We had supper at Singgah Selalu. then, we headed home to Bandar Baru Uda. My last trip there was last year Ithink when Iwanted to get clothes for Hari Raya. So it was the same still but it needs some cleaning.

On Thursday morning, we woke around 10am, had breakfast nearby and start our journey to Port Dickson. We had just one stop at dunno where den continued our journey. By the time we reached Port Dickson, it was around 3pm. There was a traffic jam there without a cause and only reached Tiara Beach Resort around 5pm. We did all the check in thingy and at last we get to lay in bed for an hour or two before the complimentary dinner that starts at 7.30pm.

As the dinner was only for 2, father pay for the rest at RM$50 each. The buffet were great. There were lots of food e.g. satay, fried rice, wedges, lamb chop, chicken curry and more. We had most of it and we were all very full. After dinner, we walked around the resort and took lots of pictures with the family.

Back to the room, we watched movies that we brought using the laptop till all of us fell asleep.

The next morning, I woke up around 10am, bathe and get ready to have brunch. Before we went to the town area, father was glad to see a mosque so that he can do his Friday prayers. So while he went to pray, the ladies stayed in the car and what else camwhore la. Hahahaha.. The babies and I even planned about the holiday that we were trying to go since last year that is to Bangkok as we always had something on with school or work when we decided on a date to go.

So father came back at around 2.30pm and off we went to town. We had nasi campur and lots of keropok lekor, goreng pisang and burger special. We walked around a bit and I bought slippers for work as my current one is kinda ugly already.. Heheheheh.. And it's only RM$10 ok. So why not rite? Later we went back to the hotel at around 5pm, me and the babies watched Maid In Manhattan. Once the movie was about to end, we got ready and down we went to the pool. Mother even watched us from the balcony. It was great spending time just the three of us. It reminds me when we were young. It was very sweet. We spent only an hour or so at the pool and when we went up, father was still asleep so we had a bath to get ready for seafood dinner. As you all know, we ladies always get ready late therefore we bathe first before father woke up so that we dun have to hear anything from him at all.. hehehehehe..

In the evening, we went to Jimat Seafood Restaurant for dinner. And its really jimat ah. The price was so cheap but too bad we realised that it was for one serving only after the food were served. We decided to make do with it. Surprisingly, we were all full after the dinner and drove back to the hotel.

We had an early nite and slept till 10am. We got ourselves ready to check out and drove back to Singapore. We had two stops at Ayer Keruh and Gelang Patah. At Ayer Keruh, we had A&W for lunch. Yummy!!! At Gelang Patah, it was only a toilet break and pump petrol.

We reached Singapore at around 6+ in the evening. We were just glad that we're home.

While typing this entry, boyfren and frens were busy playing the psp. Hope its gonna end soon coz I'm very tired and sleepy since I woke up early. Hehehehehhe..

And boyfren, I apologise what I've done to it. I promise it will be fine soon after the repairs.
I love u and I still do!!

Last but not least, wishing all a prosperous Chinese New Year!!

2008-02-06T09:22:00.000+08:00

It was boyfren's 25th birthday last Wednesday.

Just did a simple celebration for him. I had earlier planned to surprise him with Nani, Rifqi and Ayim at Breeks, Marina Square. We met at 5pm and went to Marina Square. He was surprised to see them there as he thought that its just the two of us. After we had our food, he was surprised by Nani with a cake. The cake was damn nice but too bad we couldn't finish it and gave it to the staff at Breeks. We walked around and had lots of fun with Rifqi too. He's one cute baby!!

And later that night, we met the gilerians at Lau Pa Sat for a seafood treat from Tawil as he's got a big fat bonus. Again, food was superb and the company were great. After we had our fill, it was time for desert. That was the time boyfren cut his second cake for the day. But too bad the cake was spoilt and we didn't get our desert but we has fun laughing to Fify's phobia of cats though. Hahahahhaha..

That's it for that day..

Thanks to all that make it happen!!! And to boyfren, I hope you enjoyed yourself too!!!

Will update on his belated birthday surprise soon..

2008-01-28T18:26:00.000+08:00

Last saturday, we celebrated Father's 61st birthday at Fig & Olive, VIvoCity. This treat was by me as it was always Father who paid for everything all these years. We were supposed to be there by 8.30pm but reached there only at 9.00pm or so as there was a traffic jam near VivoCity itself. Pity Ira for being there soooo early and she has to wait up for us like more than half an hour. Luckily no trantrums from her. Hehehehe. So it was simple yet nice and I'm glad that Father like the food there.

And oh, Aunty Gai will be treating the family tomorrow night at Sakura International Buffet, Clementi Road. Too bad I won't be there as I'm on the evening shift. So Father enjoy your birthday treat.

Well.. I hope in few years time the Omega watch will be yours. Insyallah..

Later that night, I went to Mustafa Centre to meet up with boyfren. I just dunno why when I'm at Mustafa Centre, I tend to buy lots of stuffs every month. I shall control myself next time or maybe I should go when it's not payday. Hehehehe.

Off we went to Plaza Singapura for our movie date. While waiting, boyfren took out his PSP and when I talked to him, he just dun bother. He was very very engrossed with it just like a 5 year old kid with his new toy. Even when asked to take pictures, I will have to like ask him to look up and smile. Arrrggghhh.. If i knew, I won't get him the PSP for his birthday. On another thought, it's better to have him engrossed with his new toy rather than him being engrossed with other woman.. Hahahhaha..

At 12.35am, Body No 19 starts. The movie was good, lots of the scary parts and shocking music but somehow a bit difficult to understand. Hehehehe..

And last night, while helping him to iron his work clothes, his eyes were all over the PSP!!!

2008-01-23T08:41:00.000+08:00

The problems with Guys:

If u treat him nicely, he says u are in lovewith him;
If u don't, he says u are proud.

If u dress nicely, he says u are trying to lure him;
If u don't, he says u are from kampung.

If u argue with him, he says u are stubborn;
If u keep quiet, he says u have no brains.

If u are smarter than him, he'll lose face;
If he's smarter than u, he is great.

If u don't love him, he tries to posess u;
If u love him, he will try to leave u.

If u don't make love with him., he says u don't Love him;
If u do!! he says u are cheap.

If u tell him your problem, he says u are troublesome;
If u don't, he says that u don't trust him.

If u scold him, u are like a nanny to him;
If he scolds u, it is because he cares for u.

If u break your promise, u cannot be trusted;
If he breaks his, he is forced to do so.

If u smoke, u are bad girl;
If he smokes, he is gentleman.!

If u do well in your exams, he says it's luck;
If he does well, it's brains.

If u hurt him, u are cruel;
If he hurts u, u are too sensitive!! & Sooo hard to please!!!!!

Somehow.. I think some parts of it is true coz it does happen to me..

2008-01-21T12:54:00.000+08:00

I'm bored at home now!!! But I'm lazy to go out too!!

Last weekend, me and my boyfren didn't go out at all. Basically we just stayed home.

On Saturday, we met Aid at Nova to get my birthday present around 4.30pm. Look around and decided on the one that will be delivered end month at around 5.30pm. We went back to each other's home. Den at around midnight, boyfren fetch me and off we went to his place. Once reached, we straight away went to sleep.

On Sunday, we woke up around 5pm. While eating our breakfast cum lunch cum dinner, we watched tv. When we are done and bored with the tv, we took a nap. It lasted for a few hours.
Boyfren wanted to wash his bike so I followed to his void deck and accompany him. At around 12 midnite, we went to Mcdonalds at Tampines Mart to buy takeaways. Ate our supper in the room while watching Just Like Heaven and once done, we clear everything up and went to sleep.

And because of that... I feel fat now!!!

2008-01-16T19:45:00.000+08:00

It was Kudut's birthday celebration last Saturday and Ryzan's birthday celebration last Sunday. Kudut's celebration was held at Vivo followed by karaoke session while Ryzan's celebration was held at Costa Sands chalet.

Kudut's surprise was a sweet and simple one. Alia actually blindfold him all the way to the rooftop where we were all waiting. Once the blindfold was open, everyone sang a birthday song. He make a wish, blow the candles and cut the cake. Right after the guys saboed him with the Secret Recipe cake. Hhahahahahha...

Ryzan's surprise was quite a big one. He didn't know that he's going to his surprise chalet when his fren brought him them. Doors of the chalet were closed so as soon as he was on the steps in front of the chalet, everyone from all sides of the chalet saboed him. He was covered almost by the flour. Not only him was saboed. Pity Kudut for being saboed both days. Not forgetting the rest of the January babies that were saboed named Ah Seng, Boyfren and Sham.. Hahahahha..

Both celebration were great and was a blast!!!

Coming up would be father's and boyfren's birthdae...

2008-01-03T18:49:00.000+08:00

My first post in 2008 which will be about Aizah's birthday celebration, Lv's birthday celebration ,the DnD assignment, dinner outing with the family and not forgetting the new year's eve celebration..

It will be quite a long entry.. So bear with me..

Aizah's birthday celebration on 26/12/07 started with dinner at Hooters followed by cutting cake ceremony at Amara which she was clueless about then to Attica for party.. Cutting cake at Amara was sooo funny. We actually blindfolded her from Clarke Quay to Amara. While waiting for Eqa to reach Amara, we played around with Aizah by saying that we are leaving her behind to meet Santa which she kinda believe in. Hahahaha. Oh ya, she even thought we're at Pump Room. Hahahha. So when Eqa came, we took Aizah's hand and made her touch Eqa top and she was pulling it hard. Lucky Eqa her top was fine. We all went up to the room with Aizah still blindfolded. In the room, we made crying noises and Aizah was kinda scared that she was like moving her hands left to right coz she actually heard our voices. That was damn hilarious.After having fun with her blindfolded, we open it and sang the birthday song. We had some laughs and out we went to Attica for party. As usual after the party, we headed to Spize for supper den back to the room.

The west side girls left early in the morning leaving the east side girls to sleep with the bed for ourselves. Muahahahahaha. Around 12, Erlina went off for work while Eqa and me chat till it was time for us to get ready to check out.

Guess what we did after checking out!! We went to Amara shopping centre, browse and bought like $50 worth of tops. We can never stop eh, Eqa!!

Once again.. Happy 25th Birthday Aizah!!!

That Thursday nite, it was Lv's birthday celebration at Double O. It has been awhile since I went there. But before that.. We were at Ambrosia Cafe for the cutting cake ceremony but we (read: me and Ira) were late thanks to me. So we didn't get to see Lv cut the cake. Around 12am, took a cab down to Mohamed Sultan and party all nite long. It was great for the siblings as it was the first time we partied together!! I enjoyed myself very much!!

At last, you're 20 Lv!!

The DnD assignment..

I was very nervous as I'm afraid that they won't like it but it turns out just fine. It started at 3.15pm at Nani's place and ends around 6.30pm.

Tell me what you think ok!!!

Later that nite... It was a treat from my father for all three of us named Ellis, Lv and Ira for our birthdays as he didn't get to do so that time. So its all in one. Not only the five of us but bestfren, Aunty Gai, Uncle Johan, Aunty Ros came too. The treat was at Sedap corner located at Simpang Bedok. The food was ok but the toast with the Kaya thingy was super duper nice.

Monday, 31 December 2007!! The new year's eve celebration was held at Amara Hotel. Thanks to Eqa for the room. There were 3 couples at first, me and boyfren, Alia and Faizal, Erika and Syawal den came another couple, Apek and Ayu. Just before the countdown, came Ming and Ah Seng. It was a private party accompanied with drinks and laughter.

Happy new year everybody!!!!

2007-12-21T19:36:00.000+08:00

I noe it's been 3 weeks since my birthday and the last entry. So I'm gonna just let you read on wat happen on my birthdae as well as Radia's birthday..

I had my birthdae celebration on 30 November with SNB. We went to Oosh for super late dinner den to Movida for party. Definitely a great one with the gerls although things happen along the way. After party, had supper at Spize with Eqa and Erlina. Reach home around 8 or 9 i think.

Around 11+ am, surprise!!! Flowers were delivered at my doorstep!! Thought it was from someone else but it was the girls!! Super duper happy ok!!

At 1+pm, I got ready to meet the boyfren to spend quality time with each other. We had dinner and watch movie at Plaza Singapura. After movie, we went to Toa Payoh to meet the gilerians as we got no other plans. Chill with them till around 1+am as I felt sooo sleepy coz I didn't even sleep when I got home earlier in the morning..

That's about it..

Radia's birthday dinner was supposed to be at this place but we changed it to TCC at Somerset instead. We then walked all the way to Thumper wer we party till dawn. As usual, we had our supper at Spize but this time till 7+am.

That's about it..

That Saturday, I have a triple date with the babies. Dinner at Swensens thanks to Ira and movies at Cineleisure thanks to Father's movie vouchers and Ira again. Hehehehhe..

2007-12-03T21:58:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday Eqa darling!!!

I noe you had lots of fun on your birthday. It was a blast rite!!?? She was a happy birthday girl at the end of the day!!

We had her celebration on 27 November 2007 starting from 8pm at Night Safari, Pump Room and ends at Spize, River Valley till 6am. It was fun blindfolding all the way from CCK Mrt. Hahahahha. She was clueless even after we open her blindfold at Night Safari. She is so the selenge ok. Hahahhaha..

Mine's over and I'll update on mine once I got the photos from the girls..

Next on the list would be Radia's birthday!!!

2007-11-30T17:00:00.001+08:00

Things have to happen every year on my birthday without fail since...

It sucks big time..

2007-11-27T15:28:00.000+08:00

Dunno why I felt this way..
Was it me, you or us?

Deep down, I hope everything is fine..

I wish and I wish..

2007-11-27T15:06:00.000+08:00

Jika cinta berbicara
Hati ku kau percaya
Usia dewasa mengajar erti cinta
Apalah aku diam tak mampu

Terbatas cinta kerna norma dan Dogma
Ketulusan hati menjadi tanda tanya
Kenapa aku semakin pilu

Dan atas nama cinta
Terlahir aku melihat dunia
Demi jiwa ruang batinku
Kau adalah pendamping jiwaku
Oh….

Kan usia dewasa mengajar erti cinta
Ketulusan hati menjadi tanda tanya
Apalah aku diam tak mampu

2007-11-22T10:11:00.000+08:00

Please spare a thought of how I feel!!!!!!

2007-11-20T20:43:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday Erlina darling!!!

I hope you had fun last Saturday with all the surprise we had for you!! And oh not forgetting the birthday hat and the blindfold thingy we did to you!! Hahahahhaha...

Next on the list will be.....

Eqa's birthday!!!!!!

Can't wait for next week!!!

2007-11-08T12:39:00.000+08:00

Dreams!! Dreams!!

I hate them!!

Please stop all the dreams!!

It's killing me!!

2007-10-31T13:35:00.000+08:00

Visiting with the gilerians on last Saturday was kecohrable. It started at Aris place at 12pm and ends at ard 1am at Manmok's place. There were more than 10 gileras and 2 cars. It was also Tawel's birthday so at the end of the visiting he was saboed to the max. Hahahahhaha...

2007-10-25T20:20:00.000+08:00

Did I ever tell u that boyfren is very the vain??

Ok, I was actually looking at the photos in my phone and I saw 2 photos that was taken about a month ago. To be exact, it was on 27 Sept 2007. On this very day, I bought 2 face masks(one for me & boyfren) from Mas that she used for her facial lessons in Kimarie. So that night I went back to his place and did it for him. I told him if we have slices of cucumber, we can put it on the eyes. Immediately, he asked me to go and check in the fridge. Hahahhahahah. While waiting for it to dry, he somehow fell asleep and I took pics of him with the mask.

The next day, he asked if he can use the mask every day coz his face will be very smooth after using it. And of coz, I said no. Till dis date, he have not used it although I promised him that I will do it for him once a week. Hahahahhaha...

Boyfren, you very the vain lah!!

2007-10-24T19:41:00.000+08:00

SNB went out for visiting last Friday. This year I managed to join them right from the start and also we managed to cover all 6 of our houses. Boyfren normally tagged along but too bad he's busy with his new job so its just us the girls.

Irin's house was the first followed by Aizah's den Radia's. Next was mine followed by Erlina den Eqa. It all started around 1pm and ended at 2am.

We rent a car this year and the bill came up to $100+. Its ok though as we will divide it by 6.

Wateve it is, I enjoyed myself alot with all the jokes and nonsense that day!! Love u all!! And oh, we will still do these gatherings when we have our own family ok!!

And... Last saturday, me and boyfren went visiting too. We met at ard 5pm and went to Nani's place for her son's birthday. Then we went to Grandmother's, Hamdan's and Uncle's place in Tampines. The last house was Kak Linda's place in Sengkang. We went off at around 1am straight to boyfren's place, change clothes and off we went to meet the Gilerians at Adam Road. We went home around 4+am.

Before I end this entry..

Happy 18th Birthday Nur Elfira!!!

I love you ok!!

p.s: I kinda like this one too!!

2007-10-22T19:36:00.000+08:00

Happy 2 years boyfren!!

We have been together for 2 years but it seems like we have known each other forever eh..

I'm looking forward to more of us and I can't wait to have a family of our own too!!

Luving you always, boyfren!!! Muackz!!!

2007-10-17T13:12:00.000+08:00

I'm free now!! Yeah!!

Let's talk about my Hari Raya.

First day was spent with dearest family. As usual, I woke up late at around 1.30pm. Babies were awake by then. I wanted to do the makeup for them so Lv went to bathe first while Ira just watched tv. Once Lv is out, Ira went to bathe while I did the makeup for Lv. Mother was already ready by then and told us to hurry up. When I'm done with Lv, Ira is out so I did the makeup for her. While I was busy putting eyeshadow on her, Mother came in the room again and told us to go to Grandmother's place by ourselves. I continued with the makeup and by 3, she's done. So I'm left with myself!! It's always like dat!! I will be the last one to get ready!!

I went to bathe, did the makeup and by 4pm, we're out of the house and in the cab.

When we reach Grandmother's place, it was full house with my aunties, uncle, cousins and also friends of family. We camwhore abit here and there den went to dining table and EAT!! I think that time was already ard 5pm. Hungry like hell already ah!! I thought after we ate, we will be out but no, we got to wait the other aunty to reach so that we can all go out together. Finally at around 8pm, we drove off to Teban Gardens to this Grandfather house where we normally go on the first day.

We reach Teban Gardens at around 8.30pm. We ate again while waiting for the rest to reach. We stayed there till around 9.45pm. The rest decided to go home while we decided to go to my aunt's place at Woodlands. We watched tv, played with the cat and went home at ard 12am.

I was super duper tired that nite!! And I got to wake up at 9.00am so that I can be on time...

It was fun though!! Hari Raya is the only time I get to meet all my cousins and oh I managed to give all of them their duit raya!!

More pics for you to look at in Multiply!!

2007-10-15T13:37:00.000+08:00

I'm sooooooo tired and sleepy!!! I want to sleep coz it's raining!!! The weather sooo nice!!

Boyfren!!! I want you!!!!!

2007-10-12T11:02:00.000+08:00

Its the last day of Ramadan today!! I'll be doing my last minute touch ups and not forgetting the Tapak Kuda and I'll be done..

I'm glad that we managed to get half-day for today. So I'll be out of office at 12.30pm.. Yeah yeah!!!

So to everyone..

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!!
Maaf Zahir & Batin!!

2007-10-11T19:38:00.000+08:00

Work sucks ah!!
Double standard!!
Might as well you do the SOP and let us follow it instead!!

Haiz!! I give up!!!

2007-10-09T20:10:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.. Hari Raya is in 3 days and I think all the preparations can be done by then.

Curtains are half done. Cookies and cakes are half done too. My tapak kuda cake will be made on Friday so no hurry still.

Painting of the rooms are all done with the colours of blue for the babies room, red for mine and orange for the parents. Furnitures of the room are somehow in place now and clothes are arranged nicely and those old stuff have been thrown or given away. One thing that I'm not able to get in 3 days time is a queen size bed for myself but that can wait till next pay or even end of the year. No hurry so no worries. I'll make do with the single size bed for now.

Ever since the bestfren's room was redone to be made as my room, it seems that the babies are into my room den their own room. I asked Lv yesterday about it and she told me partly it's the SCV that is calling them to my room, other than that the room is just so cozy. We concluded that the single bed could be the reason of the cosyness. No wonder bestfren will just stay put in the room for hours eh.

I'm loving the room now but I always have to sleep downstairs coz one of the babies will be on the bed and that's the main reason why I wanna get a queen size bed.

Enough about the bed. Let's talk about boyfren. He's currently on training till Friday. He claims that the job is not as easy as he think it is. The training is quite hard too. Well no pain no gain rite?? So work hard baby!!

You promised me something big. Remember!!?? I'll be there to support you till the end k!!!

2007-10-08T18:43:00.000+08:00

Iftar was fun with SNB last Tuesday!!

We went to Swensens at Marina den to Geylang. The trip from Marina to Geylang was full of laughter due to the camwhoring on the train with lots of people in it. People looked at us like as if we were all crazy. They must be very glad when we alight at Paya Lebar. Hahahaha!! We went straight to City Plaza and bought the exact same tops but different colours. It was super kecohrable with Rad trying to find the size for the colour she wanted and all. Next, we went to Malay Village where we found this cute corset for our kebayas and it was again kecohrable as we tried to bargain but in the end only Eqa i think bought it. And oh Eqa, we got it for $15 only!! Hahahhaha.. Lastly, we went to buy food at the Haig Road bazaar, find a place to sit and went home. It was already 1 or 2 in the morning when I reach home. Super duper sleepy when I went to work the next morning!!

But it was all worth it coz I get to spend time with SNB as I've not met them since Irin's birthday!!

Luv u all loads!!!!

2007-10-02T15:53:00.000+08:00

SNB are meeting at Swensen's Marina for iftar @ 6.30pm today!!!

Yeehhhoooooo!!!!

Can't wait!!!

2007-09-26T21:52:00.000+08:00

Sagittarius
The Happy-Go-Lucky One

Good-natured optimist.
Doesn't want to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome)
Indulges self.
Boastful.
Likes luxuries and gambling.
Social and outgoing.
Doesn't like responsibilities.
Often fantasizes.
Impatient.
Fun to be around.
Having lots of friends.
Flirtatious.
Doesn't like rules.
Sometimes hypocritical.
Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes.
Doesn't like being doubted.
Beautiful inside and out.

Dun u think it's true... ahhahahah

2007-09-25T19:09:00.000+08:00

Guess wat!!?? I was downloading my old photos to Multiply when I found a scan copy of us in 2000. We were soooo young then. Hahahahha..

Us back in 2000 during Hari Raya..

Us now in 2007 during Irin's birthday..

Oh btw, he called me up around 4pm and shouted "I'm starting the job in 05 Oct!!!" I was shocked to hear him scream that loud. Even Linda heard it. All I can say to you is congratulations and I did told you that you will get the job!! The thing is why boyfren has not been positive about this is coz he's afraid the medical checkup won't go well. He's worrying over nothing ah sometimes. Today is his last day at Corporate Travel Services and sooo I have him to myself till 5 Oct..

Yeeehhooooooo!!!!

2007-09-23T18:11:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was iftar with Gilerians followed by birthday celebrations for the 3 named Khai, Firman and Manmok.

We had iftar at wayang 89.7 at Geylang. 6 tables have been booked by Fify but it's not enuff so whoever came late will have to wait for those who have finished. I had Ikan Bilis fried rice from Hawa which was very the disappointed ah. Not nice at all and it's cold too. I had half of it onli. Boyfren was having roti john cheese from 89.7 and I managed to curik some. We sat there till dunno wat time den we proceed to Kallang Stadium to celebrate Firman and Manmok's birthday that falls on the day itself and the next day respectively. They were saboed badly by the rest!! Just imagine.. It's a combination of flour and shaving cream sak luckily dun have any eggs or else.. Madness!!

After 2 hours like dat, we went to Sultan Gate as the guys wanted to meet someone. That's wer we the girls started to camwhoring like nobody's business.. Heehehehe. not forgetting, Khai was saboed there too!!

Around 2 in the morning, they proceed to Bukit Timah while me and boyfren proceed home.

Boyfren was so thoughtful kan. Just because I'm werking today, he don't mind going home early. How sweet...

2007-09-21T13:52:00.002+08:00

It's official!! The promotion and increment letter was given to me earlier before HR went for her 1/2 day leave!! At last!! Yeah!! Yeah!!

Speaking of which.. U noe wat? Dat time when I told boyfren about the promotion and all, he said that he's my lucky charm or something like dat la. He said dat I owe all this to him coz we were together 1 month after I work in the company. Shame on him ehk? Tak malu nak mampus sak? It's just all coincidence. Maybe too it's coz of him or myself. It doesn't really matter though..

I am just glad and happy!! And oh today boyfren's words are so sweet like candy!!

2007-09-20T10:59:00.000+08:00

To trust or not to trust??

I do trust but somehow some of me says not to.. How eh?

I hate this feeling!!! Coz of this feeling, I'm having doubts somehow about things..

Please tell me not to have doubts about it!! Please tell me that everything's fine!! Please tell me to trust things!!

2007-09-19T17:18:00.001+08:00

I wish I dun have to come to work today sey!! I wish my leave will be for the whole week. I wish my rooms are all done. But it's half done only and I wonder when I will start to tidy the rooms again. Next week maybe?? Since Lv is on holiday and Ira too, I'll get them to help out.

Let's talk abt boyfren now. I was smiling non-stop when boyfren told me that Recruit Express called him up and told him he got the job at SP. I am very glad that after few interviews he went, he finally got it. I believe he can't stop smiling too yesterday. But he will never be at ease till he keyed his 1st meter. I told him to think positive and assure him that he got the job.

Things happen between me and boyfren yesterday. I just hope that boyfren would understand how i felt about it and I'm sorry if I've said things that hurts him or anything. The trust is there but sometimes it's just not enough.

No matter what... I luv u still and wants to spend my life with u.....

2007-09-15T05:38:00.000+08:00

Me: Baby, I'm still the only one person u're deeply in luv with kan?

Boyfren: Yup. Very deep deep down inside my heart is written Nurellisda Bte Md Salleh.

Boyfren: Love u baby!!

Me: I luv u too very much baby.! I wish im married to u now jus so dat I noe ure mine now always n forever.. Hehe..

Boyfren: Haha. U make me smile. U noe wat? Sumtimes u r damn cute u noe dat.

Well boyfren.. I am cute coz you're cute too.. Hahahaha..

I was watching the movie A Lot Like Love at HBO when I msg him. Somehow it reminds me of us. In the movie, they were together only after 6 1/2 years while we end up together only after 8 years.

For those who's reading and wondering why, we met in 1998 den lost contact. We met again in 2000, we were together for a while den broke off and lost contact again. In 2002, we met again but were not together and lost contact again right after Last but not least, 2005 we met while in Double O and were together since.

Boyfren ever told me that we are fated to meet and be with each other. He's more den happy now, his life is great with me by his side..

Baby!! I am more than glad that we meet again!! Muackz!!!

2007-09-14T12:45:00.000+08:00

It's raining!!! I dun feel like going to work sey..

But nvm.. Today I'll go to work and tomorrow till Tuesday, I'll be on leave.. Woohooo!!!!

But its not for fun k.. It's to settle all the painting and moving back the stuffs to the rooms.. I sooo hope it will be done by next week..

By the way, I wonder if my allowance wen I was goin for the LCCI course is ready and if the exam results is also ready.. I dun think exam results are ready since it's been 2 weeks onli after the exam..

Snb!! When are we goin to break fast together2..? Hmmm.. Speaking of it.. I shall get mother to hold a break fast session with the relatives one of the days.. I miss dem all sey!!

2007-09-13T03:17:00.000+08:00

Selamat berpuasa semuaaaaaa!!!!

2007-09-12T10:54:00.000+08:00

Year 2000 & 2002 it happens and it hurts me alot but still I let it be and do nothing..
And now in 2007, it happens again..

History is sooooooo repeating itself and I have myself to blame for it..
Heartaches, insecure, scared and all other kinds of feelings are in me now..
I will never have a good night sleep till it ends..
I hope all promises won't be broken..

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