I felt so relieved now since i've told him what has been bugging me this few days.. The reasons to me being crazy as in being nice to him for a few hours and den cold towards him next. Ever since the incident of his ex girlfriend calling and messaging him often, it made me have negative thoughts whenever he's not with me. Questions like 'Has he been honest with me all this while?', 'Is he seeing someone else behind my back?' etc..

Then, few days later i found out that he's been contacting a girl named Noi. Whenever he called or msg her would be during the times or days i'm not with him. What made me more paranoid when i got to know dat he deleted the msgs that has been sent to her. Questions like 'Why did he delete the msgs?', 'Is he hiding things from me?' etc.. I know I shouldn't think dat way if i trust him but I jus can't.

So yesterday, I asked him about it. This is how itgoes....

Me: Who the hell is Noi? Ur scandal is it.. Y do u call or msg her whenever I'm not around.. U got something to hide..

Me: Oh ya..Forget to ask u also.. Y must delete her msgs ah..Afraid that i will know wat she msg..

Him: Wat r u talking about? U crazy or wat. Noi is my schoolmate wat. Wat is there for me to hide.. I got nothing to hide..

Me: Wateva.. So if she's ure schoolmate y delete all her msgs.. I know you've been calling n messaging her.. N u did dat wen ure at werk or im not with u..

Him: I'm not afraid that u will find out.. I delete cos later u will say like wat u just did. U say dat i got scandal, i got lots of gf. Onli u can have frens but i can't..

Me: The more u do dat the more i will think otherwise.. U definitely didn't learn from ur ex incident..

Him: U used to say that u r understanding n open. But now u r not.. Onli ur bf can call or msg but my gf can't.

Me: Dun u understand wat im trying to tell.. I seriously dun mind abt ur gf calling but y must delete it. Come on la.. Dis is not about me being understanding..

Him: When my ex msg u oredi like crazy wats more wen other of my gf msg. U say u r understanding but ure not. N u start to sound like her, my ex..

Me: No wait.. Me n her r 2 different ppl. Wat i dun understand is y u must be so secretive. Since ur ex msg i already crazy, the more u shouldn't delete..

Him: I delete coz i dun want u to tink otherwise n become crazy like wat u did during the incident..

Me: So u think im not goin to be crazy coz u delete eh??

Him: Ok.. I wont the next time.. U dun fuckin trust or believe me right. I knew it la.. Go n fucking call n ask her urself..

Me: So now ure using vulgarities on me becoz of them.. So they mean more to you den me huh?

Him: I use it not on u wat. Im just frustrated tats all. They dun mean anythin to me but u do. But u realli sound like her tis way. U say dat ure open n understanding but u r not. Just lik her.. Y u gerls always say but dun mean it..

Me: Wen things happen u say dat im not wat i claim to be. Wat if i were to do the exact same thing to u, i believe u will react the same way.. Btw if im like her, i would have deleted all ur gf nos without u knowing.. Im so disappointed in u.. U have known me for 8 years. Have i ever describe myself as someone im not..?

Him: Den y u so worked up abt e incident n e msgs??

Me: E incident is coz u ever had e initiative to tell n i found out by myself. Abt dis, I dun mind she callin but i dun like it wen she call too often n i believe if she's ur girlfriend, she wont like it too.. As for the msgs, y u need to delete it coz dat will onli make me more suspicious.. If onli u had not deleted, i might not get the wrong idea abt the 2 of u. N as a result i became crazy and paranoid. I need u to understand my feelings. Honesty n bein truthful is all i want even if ure in the wrong. The same goes to me.

Him: Im sori..

Me: I want u to promise things like dis will never happen again in the future.. But if u think dat its not needed in our relationship den dun bother, Im sorry if im asking too much from u as i hope dat dis gonna be the last relationship im in..

Him: Ur wish is my command.. I'll do anithing for us, for our relationship and for our future. Want u to noe dat im true n i love u very much..

Me: I want it to be coz u want to n not coz i command u to do so.. I dun wat in the future u tell me ure doin it coz i want u to..

Him: Ok dear..

Baby.. I love u soooo much and I dun wish to lose you....
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Ellis, Lisa, Lis
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